Filled With Nothing
My mind if filled with nothing, its blank, empty.
I feel awful, weak, tired and completely drained of any real kind of emotion and energy. My teeth ad jaw ache so much, they always do when I get poorly. I hope it goes away, its such a relentless pain.
Last week was so busy, with Hubbies operation, I had to push that much more. I tried to be there when he needed me, however he didn’t want to listen or rest afterwards, he’s a man, they never listen.
So he is already back at work, not that he was ready, again its the not listening thing.
Yesterday on one of the multiple sclerosis groups, I found out a woman who had MS “checked out” so yeh, she killed herself. She was tired of the pain.
I get that.
Although I don’t know her at all, it made me think, I realised just what kind of a future I am facing. One that is not easy or relaxing.
That poor woman. I hope she can rest easy now, I hope she is now at peace.
Makes you think, will I ever reach that point when enough is enough? Will I ever be so sick of the pain and so tired of the tiredness, I end it all? I really hope not.
I don’t really have much else to say today, other than I am sorry for the lack of humour and content.
I am so tired.