So roll back a few months, I was not sleeping. I was exhausted from even trying to sleep, but just completely unable to switch off.
Once I was asleep I would sleep, it was just the whole getting to sleep part I was struggling with.
I think I ended up using nytol for around 4 weeks, I think given how tired I was, I would have tried anthrax if I thought it would send me off to sleep.
Knowing what I know about drugs, I knew becoming dependant on said antihistamine was probably not the best option.
So when the time came to see the man in charge of, well, me? The first thing out of my mouth was “please put me to sleep” I informed him about my longing to nip into the anesthetics suite when I was on my way to my infusions, just for a quick nap.
He We laughed.
But that didn’t last long because I WAS KNACKERED.
So he gave me Amitriptyline. I knew a little about the drug and he said it would help me drift of into a normal sleep.
So although Amitriptyline is not really used for sleep, reports show people who do use it, have a real sleep.
So, the first night I took it. Two hours later I was asleep.
The whole night, I slept.
But the next day I had to wake up for some appointment and my did I feel like death.
I literally felt like I had been dragged through a hedge backwards twice, thrown out of a tree and had someone shouting in my ear ALL NIGHT LONG.
I had been warned about the after effects at the pharmacy. How I would feel if I woke too soon.
I felt like satan had licked my brain. It was vile.
I had an Amitriptyline hangover. The worst kind of hangover ever.
And the only way to get rid of this hangover was to sleep. Sleep was the key.
So thats what I did!
Now, instead of feeling like I had danced with the devil, I wake up feeling like I had a real sleep. Kind of like a normal person does.
I need to make sure I get between 12-14 hours, but thats fine. As long as I can wake up ready to face my version of life, I’m good.
Thank god for modern medicine!